it is all about me, complicated, stereotype,melancholic, confused and semak.

i'm not good in writing. thus, when i'm in deep shit, there will be certain people will be my dump. i luv those 'certain people'..mayb because their judgements and respons to me which help me a lot. because there will be a certain rules while dealing with my confusion and semak-ness.
1] dun asked me to 'sabar la..dugaan tuh' no..no..it won't work. in fact i'll feel annoyed.
2] dun interrupt while i'm explaining what 'the-exact-shit' is. let me express everythings from A to Z. let me memaki hamun n menyumpah seramnah till i feel better and relief. by cutting my explaination will get me moooooreeee shit
3] when i say ok..pleasss..then, giv ur ideas..i need that. and i dun care if u want to blame me, but, better with a good judgemental supaya i will not patahkan balik..

so far, cuma ada dua org je yg berani dengar my kemarahan n bijak dalam mendealingkan my kemarahan ..

yg pompuan ni i like so much sbb bila i ckp 'arggghhh marah2' and dia akan reply camni..'ape lagi zan..ko g je belasah dia..' hohohoho cukup buat i relief..lega selega leganya (er..tak la g belasah betul) atau pun 'eeiii..dia ingat dia bagus sangat ke? shilake la dia..' hahahah. puas nye hatiiii dpt buat org join maki hamun.

yg lelaki nih pulak, bile i ckp 'eiii..kenape la dia suke suki ckp mcm tuh..kata i tak paham prosedur'..dia dengan selambanya akan ckp..'haih..meh bg dia kat i, i kawen ngan dia, sure settle masalah'.. walau pun my respon would be 'aaaa? ape pulak nih..tp sebab i kena pause untuk pk his respon akan membuatkan i jadi..uuhhhh dia buat lawak, and magicnya, i boleh gelak...tak jadi nak marah okeh.. dan lepas melampiaskan segala marahnya pada dia.. last2 dia ckp camni '..ala.. dah la tak yah nak marah2 org, ape kata kita baca quran..dan amalkan sunnah rasulallah..' duh..dan disambung2 dengan lawak2nya yg ..yg..alahai..

sebenarnyakan sepanjang 28 tahun nih, i feel like i understand myself walau pun not fully and really understand...i do admit that i am a melancholic person, easy-stress, confused, kusut, semak dll. and because of that, there will be certain time when i will not serious, because of that, i really need someone who can accept me like how i always be. me yg selalu kata i am pemalu. yes, for strangers, but, if you always in my heart.. i can be talkative until u malas nak layan my craps!

i love people yg bole dibawak berbual tentang semua benda. tak kesah la serious atau tak. economy, social, politic, environment, movie, artis, oogy the cococroach,iklan "u" mobile, stesen ketapi, bus express, feri, kedai mamak, awek yg mari.., pengat pisang, tongkeng ayam, pasar malam dan mcm2. i love people yg bole buat i gelak sorg2 terbahak2 walau pun hanya buat lawak bodo pasal kerusi kort memot, i love people yg bole buat i terkedu dengan respon pada soalan-soalan i yg ntah hape2, meaning kalau i loyar buruk, dia punya loyar buruk double and triple, i love people yg sentiasa menjadi dia, tak dek duit, buncit, hutang byk tp sentiasa konfiden dia manis.. i love people who always be him/herself..as i always be.

sorry, mungkin anda tidak memahami perkara2 di atas yg tiada langsung kaitan antara para 1, 2 atau seterusnya. i just want to expressssss everything.
i am in in the middle of kusut, semak, confused, kacau and sewaktu dengan nya. it is not fair for perempuan di para 3 untuk mendengar nya hari ni kerana telah dua hari berturut2 dia mendengar kekusutan saya. jadi saya terpaksa mengexpress di sini..because i do warn u before, i'm not good in writing. jadi, andai anda tidak paham, abaikan kekusutan diri saya. adapun saya amat kusut, sekusut, kusutnya..

ye, betul, tak tipu.